The First and the Last Time


--you pray?
1st: I think when i was 3 or 4, as soon as I have learned speaking, my father taught me right away a simple prayer.
Last: before eating my lunch a while ago.

--you sing?
1st: 3 or 4, some nursery rhymes that my sister taught me
Last: while looking at the CDs in Odyssey before going home a while a go

--you cry?
1st: when i was born
Last: just last night before going to sleep

--you cry the hardest?
1st: when i was born
last: i think 5 months ago, after bringing my mom in the hospital

--you say sorry?
1st: i can't remember probably it have been for my sister
Last: to jhubail, when i told her, 'bahala ka na nga sa buhay mo!' she got terribly mad at me and didn't text me for almost three weeks, i just got the chance to apologize at the start of our summer class

--you say thank you meaningfully?
1st: to my parents but just in a letter because i couldn't say it personally
Last: to a friend... hmmm...

--you became so much depressed?
1st: 1st year highschool about a highly confidential problem
Last: on my debut when someone that i expected so much to come but disappointed me, not only on that day but until forever.

--you became so much happy?
1st: family reunion in pampanga
Last: viewing the sunset alone in the baywalk

--you became/come in-love?
1st: 3rd year highschool
Last: i hope it will not be the last

--you stroll alone?
1st: 2nd year highschool in festival
Last: just last week in SM Sta. Rosa

--you hang-out with friends?
1st: grade four at Gerlie's hauz
last: me and joan last-last week

--you became mad?
1st: grade four
Last: to my sister just the other day

--you dance?
1st: field demo, kindergarten days
Last: at the PTS convergence, Brain Gym

--you laugh the hardest?
1st: on my father's jokes
Last: just last night while talking to my bestfriend over the phone

--you wanna die?
1st: March 2004
Last: March 2004

--you got a dear friend?
1st: kindergarten days... Joan Sigua
Last: college days... they're so many to mention

--you got a dear enemy?
1st: highschool
Last: now that i'm already in college, i have learned to love my critics

--you got terribly sick?
1st: based from my mom's stories, when i was just a baby, due to amoebiasis
last: last year, liver malfunction, but i'm always sick, just like now, due to very dry eyes, my eyes often teared...

--you feel very healthy?
1st: CAT training days
Last: last week before the start of the class when i can always rest my eyes

jipz, di ko na kayang sagutan lahat, ang sakit na ng mata ko eh... hehehe

ako. sa kaloob-looban ng hypothalamus mo.

sagana sa dakdak ang hangin nang piliin mong tumabi sakin ng araw na yun sa pila ng mistulang nagmamakaawa para sa relief goods.
humigop ka ng konting pepsi sa kanina mo pang pinapalong bote sa upuan natin.
huminga ka ng malalim at umusal ng, 'ang tagal naman'
hindi kita kayang tingnan kasi hindi kita ka-level
level.level.level. kailan ba natutunan ang sistemang yun?
makalipas ang isang oras, nakalahati na rin natin ang pila.
ikalawang oras nang magkaroon tayo ng 'synaptic connection'.
inalok mo ko ng kendi. mentos. hindi ako mahilig dun pero sige na nga. pampalipas oras lang.
nginitian kita at ganun din naman ang tugon mo.
ikatlong oras. dalawang rows na lang at tayo na. humarap ka sakin at sinambit mo.
'siguro pag nandun na tayo, ang sarap ng feeling'
nye. hindi ako natuwa. pero sige baka kasi sabihin mo naluge ka, 'oo nga'
nahuli kitang nakatingin ka sakin pero pilit kong binalewala iyon.
at ng dahil dun ako naman ang nahuli mo pero ganun din ang reaksyon mo.
o sige, wala lang kunwari.
tatlong tao na lang ang natitira at tayo na.
ngunit hindi ko pa rin alam ang pangalan mo. at wala na rin naman akong lakas ng loob para malaman.
napatulala na lang ako. itinabi ka lang sakin ni Lord para kahit papaano malibang ako. tnx ha. (siyempre sa isip ko lang yan) napangiti ako ng hindi sinasadya sa naisip ko. akala mo para sa'yo yun. o siya sige, nginitian na kita ng tuluyan pero kailangan ko ng umalis.
panu ba yan? kitakits na lang kahit saan.